Solitude - A Cherished Companion

Hello fellow earthlings! It so often feels like we are this mamoth crowd stuck on this planet, where, each day we are made to face situations good and bad as if, we are some guinea pigs and the almighty, a scientist. Sometimes, we keep running away from situations and after a while we just feel like sitting down and taking a break. The monotony literally bites and hence we go underground. I have been feeling the same. It seems like solitude is the only solution and much to our liking it is a very comfortable phase to move into. Offlate I more than often feel like shunning major social interactions, not because I feel insecure but, just that I cannot bring myself to agree to go with the flow. A person whom I value a lot always asks me to drop all the lousy emotional baggage and just take a dip in the river called 'life' which by my reckoning leads to the ocean of 'happiness'. But on the flip side I want to thorougly soak into the current phase and forget about the rest. I still love all the people who are close to me but just want to take a pit stop in this lengthy race. Because, we humans are meant to be social and the protocol commands that we interact with our environment and fellow humans. Obviously humans cannot take a sabatical from the daily course of life but can still try to ponder over what is currently happening to them. I believe that these phases are all dark tunnels at the end of which awaits happiness with open arms. We ought to call a truce with our inner self to be happy. So, I guess, I'll get going and do what I actually like. Who knows, I may actually bring myself some inner peace!

Relationships and all the hoopla

I many a times wonder as to how do people claim that they have a perfect relationship. What aptly defines a relationship I absolutely do not know. Is their any specific mechanism which clearly defines the maintenance parameters for a relationship? Well, I, on most of the occasions find myself to be confused about my relationships, especially my friendships. I on the one hand call people my best friends but do not feel that from my heart at times. Frankly speaking, I feel that I have to fake my concern and have to forcefully keep in touch. Everything seems abnormal because the very relationships that are meant to be natural for humans turn out to be painstaking and miserable. I am definitely not a loner and do not want to be one but, I just stand bemused at my own doings and thinking. I definitely love the people who care for me but at times just fail to understand whether constant communication is the only basis for trust? Is constant shadowing always a necessity?  However, at this moment I wish to dish out all these  idiotic thoughts and stare at my plants as, with no emotional investment they are some of my most loyal friends. I guess, at the end, relationships between a person and other people is a necessity for existance but enjoying your personal space and spending quality time inside your cocoon is also a necessity for growth.

Happiness-An Uniterative Facet Of Life

How often do we come across situations where we try to wear an artificial smile but deep down find no cord to connect with it. We feel like sulking, crying or being angry but also fail in bringing out these natural emotions. But,when our soul is happy, we are happy. Everything around us seems to be exciting and even the daily mundane activities in life hold some significance. Well, I sometimes come across situations where there is no apparent reason for me to be unhappy but, I still don't want to be happy. Is happiness related to an external factor or some abstract driving force in nature? Happiness, just like medicines, have to be injected to provide tranquility to the soul. Once the soul gulps down the doze of happiness, life seems amazing, even if, for a brief period of time. Sometimes, I feel it takes some effort on my part to be happy but, why not? Life is really short and since it it is mostly plagued by rough waters,why not remain afloat for one more day, by just being happy. The  one possible method of filling the void created by no feelings could be filled in by activities which keep us busy. This way we at least prevent our mind from turning into a devil's workshop. My dad keeps saying that if I try to be happy the world will be happy and vice-verse. I guess, somewhere his words have a lot of meaning. But, I know, somewhere in the corner of my mind that if I keep waiting for a positive incident to bring happiness in my life, I'll soon be doomed!  Life is a weird combination of positive and negative incidents and it is up to us to remain happy all through. Happiness definitely doesn't iterate but who says it can't persist!