Laziness or reluctance

I felt like a real jerk today because I valued my laziness more than my relationships. The irony of the entire situation is that even though I was pardoned by the person in question I am sort of feeling hurt. Does this really happen to people in reality? That sometimes the mind is so stubborn that it refuses to budge and causes nothing but pain. The guilt factor then eats you the rest of the day for the actions you took. It sounds confusing, doesn't it? Never mind, I have however managed to dust my self out of the rust I had merrily coated myself with and have decided to take up tomorrow's day with a new spirit and an ardent will to live life to the fullest i.e. from my perspective.